Silence

SILENCE 

Jars of Clay 

The Eleventh Hour

Take, take till there’s nothing, nothing to turn to. 

Nothing when you get through. 

Won’t you break, scatter pieces of all I’ve been. 

Bowing to all I’ve been running to. 

I, I got a question, I got a question - Where are you? 

 Did you leave me unbreakable? 

Leave me frozen? 

I’ve never felt so cold. 

I thought you were silent. 

I thought you left me for the wreckage and the waste. 

On an empty beach of faith. 

Was it true? 

Scream, deeper I wanna scream. 

I want you to hear me, I want you to find me. 

I want to believe but all I pray is wrong and all I claim is gone. 

I, I got a question, I got a question - Where are you? Where are you?

I love Jars of Clay. The lyrics have a way of penetrating your soul, breaking your spirit, but also lifting you up to the point of dancing. On our way home from church today Shannon mentioned this song to me.. This goes hand in hand with a sermon about doubt. Asking, pleading to God -- where are you? Why did you leave me? When in reality, it's the silence that can bring the healing. Silence isn't always a bad thing.. There's a comfort in being with others and not needing to fill the emptiness with a voice or a conversation. I am starting to learn that in the silence is when our questions may be answered. 

In October, so many people were pregnant, and I think instead of sharing the amazing experience of new life I'm going to be flying solo with the next pregnancy. This month, Audrey has let her terrible 3's fly and I am believing God knows we couldn't handle her and a newborn at the same time. By the time another baby does roll around --- I am believing and putting faith in God that we will carry another full term baby --- she will be potty trained, a helper, and almost 4 :) 

I'd much rather leave you, or rather myself, on a positive note. Regardless of what's going on, God will be there.. Here's another Jars of Clay song ---

GOD WILL LIFT UP YOUR HEAD
traditional words by Paul Gerhardt (trans. John Wesley, alt. by Jars of Clay) / music by Jars of Clay

Give to the wind your fear
Hope and be undismayed
God hears your sighs and counts your tears
God will lift up, God will lift up, lift up your head

God will lift up your head
God will lift up your head
God will lift up your head
Lift up your head

Leave to His sovereign sway
To choose and to command
Then shall we wandering on His way
Know how wise and how strong
How wise and how strong

God will lift up your head
God will lift up your head
God will lift up your head
Lift up your head

Through waves and clouds and storms, He gently clears the way
Wait because in His time, so shall this night
Soon end in joy, soon end in joy
Soon end in joy, soon end in joy

God will lift up your head
God will lift up your head
God will lift up your head